keep telling myself that - it was all worth while.
i know its not. everyone around me knows that , during that period in time i was the worst. in a state no one saw and no one wants to remember me by. i was nothing of now. everyday was a dread , worse than now. i never liked being anywhere. i only liked be home and drinking myself away.
side effects ??? PLENTY.
what have you turned into. what have you become. you were not worth it. why do i bother bothering about you. i don't get it. its fucking irritating that you turned into a bitch. i saw the signs but i didnt listen. so much for gut feeling.
all your empty lies. those nights. i clearly forgot till now. you can keep coming back to me. but a single communicative line now turns into dust. tell me ; wait. maybe not. shit happens. and that shit just happens to be you. (as said by wei.)
yes i know she aint good for me.
she never was.
so much for it.
keep psycho-ing myself.
'it was worth it'.
kaaye\.
- those empty lies.
memories locked at Friday, August 03, 2007
Sunday, July 29, 2007
FUNGI.
more FUNGI !!!
(so cute.)
uh huh mummy.
feet-os.
botanical gardens is GAY.
=x
singapore's 'ne-gar-rah' falls.
my very satisfied sissy and her cake.
apple crumble !!!
wee ...
this is what happens when you get sugar high.
morale of the story : don't take so much sugar.
=
my family and i went to BOTANICAL GARDENS YESTERDAY !!!
woot. it was really fun and everything. we brought , vietnamese spring rolls , wine , beer , chips , water , iced tea , beer , card games , psp , more beer , cheese platter , crackers ... and the list goes on.
whichever , it was really nice. botanical gardens were having a convert in the park , and it was really really nice. the jazz music was great along with the singing and all that nonsense. a tard sad that lynn couldn't make it. but my sister's innocence entertained me through out the entire time. heh heh. =x
the concert lasted till around ... 6 plus 7 ??? headed to tanglin for a nice simple dinner and dessert at the cafe near the super market. heh. bought groceries ... then headed back to henderson.
wonderful sunday.
with a hell lot of shit.
kaaye\.
- ride away with me.
memories locked at Sunday, July 29, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
me kite !!!
it didnt really fly tat high.
=
and so sunday was kite flying day with my family !!!
we went to town , grabbed lunchy then headed to marina bay.
heh. it was kinda fun. but then ... the god damned ground was so fucking wet my shoe got damped. shit balls. headed to have steam boat for dinner along with that we played pool too. its been a long long shit time since my family went for this kinda thingy. heh.
next week's botanical gardens !!!
woot.
=
SIAMESE SUGAR PACKETS !!!
guess.
its 'burnout'
then in less than 15 mins ... she'd throw it back at me.
know why ???
cause she is lagging behind at 35 seconds.
-.-''
she think's she's drop dead cute.
here comes ZHI LIAN KUANG's.
WELCOME TO CAFE IGUANAS. =))
i soaked their sleeves with drool and tears ;
since year one.
my 4 gfs in poly.
=x
uh huh ...
GROUP PHOTO !!!
=
okay we we all met up. (LIKE FINALLY) we went to cafe iguanas. heh heh. margaritas galore !!! didn't drink much , but thevi and na na did !!! ha ha. whichever it was really fun. cause we got to cam whore like no one's business. ha ha. LOL.
bananie was asking me ... 'do you guys have to take pictures of everything that comes to the table or moves ?!'
ANSWER IS --> YES !!!
buah ha ha. it was really fun. after dinner we went to walk around at central then bananie and i left to town. met jong , dee , krys , fox and eugene for a bit. then off to watch 'vacancy'. its the worst movie ever !!! omfg. it so god damned lame. headed home after that.
bananie and i are getting ...
OLD.
=x
kaaye\.
- to hell wit everything.
memories locked at Monday, July 23, 2007
Thursday, July 19, 2007
i am thinking of the words to say.
we open up ;
finish last.
broken up.
its only love.
=
i can feel my patience level ;
stretch , worn , torn and mauled.
this is not happening.
i need to take my medication.
she's in the way.
enlighten me on something.
would you give a sick person medication ;
or let him or her die ?
noone knows what's lying beneath.
i am alone.
i know it.
everything comes in one's.
they don't come in clusters.
...
its coming back.
i am back to mauling.
kaaye\.
- save me from myself.
memories locked at Thursday, July 19, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
dessert time !!!
more dessert.
i inherited my ...
noeyecanseedaremeifyouthinkicant eyes from mummeh !!!
me sissy and maid.
and then the parents.
=
okay.so this was sunday. =)) we went down to china town to the optician to get my entire family's eye checked and glasses twisted back into order. then we headed to that particular dessert shop for dessert !!! =)) *beams. it was definately delightful. i missed having dessert at that place.
after which , headed to grams for dinner. after dinner ... i went to meet bananie. then ... walked around east coast ... got cheated of ice cream , bought fruits ... then went home. =)) she sent me to school on monday and tuesday !!! definately worth my everything. she even bothered to bring me 'long anns' !!! so so so sweet.
erm ... monday ... where did we go ... erm ... i can't exactly remember ... but i do remember we went to ... pasir ris yesterday !!! pictures will be up loaded soon. omfg. i tell you ... their master card machine doesnt work ... -.-''
and then the rest will be updated ...
SOON.
buah bye.
kaaye\.
- nothing quite like it.
memories locked at Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
something less maybe ;
he doesn't really know.
that same excruciating memories locked deep.
no ; you wouldn't live to feel.
those emotions kept deep within ;
out of sight ,
keeping cover till forever.
who know what might ;
those tormenting images slashing ,
everything you've ever had into piece.
forgoing everything ,
he finds nothing like inner peace.
he closes his eyes ;
tears start trickling down ...
all he sees are memories of a time long forgotten.
no matter what's been said or done ;
nothing will ever bring them back to life.
kaaye\.
- i'd never come back.
memories locked at Monday, July 16, 2007
Sunday, July 15, 2007
i was helpless as you turned around to leave ;
and still i have the pain i have to carry.
a past so deep ;
that we could not bury it if you tried.
after all this time ;
i never thought we'd be here.
when my love for you is blind.
but i couldn't make you see it.
couldn't make you see it.
that i loved you more.
than you'd ever know.
when part of me died ;
when i let you go.
=
oh does history love to taunt people.
tell me this is not happening.
kaaye\.
- take me outt.
memories locked at Sunday, July 15, 2007
Thursday, July 12, 2007
fluffy !!! =x
and she never fails to make my heart flutter.
=))
=
NUMBER 6 was fucking fun !!!
we celebrated it like ... a day in advance. we had dinner at like micheal angelo's. which was really really nice. we each had potato and leek soup. followed by a glass of wine each. (i still don't understand why she supports all kinda wines except for italian. i think she is bias. fucking bias to be exact.)
whichever ... she has CAESAR SALAD. omfg. you go to a nice place only to have salad. *curses. and i had a SEAFOOD PASTA !!! yummies away !!! i still love that place just like the first time i was there. and we were early cause i was HUNGRY !!! =))
headed down to town in avial. cause the fucking movie timing was screwed up. went for coffee. i tell yer ... we have sleepy timings !!! once the clock striked 2100 +++ hrs ; we were yawning. god. =x anyways ... went for coffee then headed to MOS. we were clubbing together all over again. ha ha.
ana and the rest were superly uberly late. so ... banana and i went to fetch mirah and mimah from crown prince to MOS. then we headed for mamak !!! wee ... i love that place. heh heh. headed home and BANG !!!
we slept all the way. =))
the next day we fixed stuff in the room. watch MARTHA STEWART !!! my favourite programme. bought lunch back with the pups. headed to bed for nap time. then to east coast where we made a fucking fool of our selves. then headed to ... parkway then HOME !!! dear kinda studied ; while i played psp. =x
i love my number 6.
woot.
kaaye\.
- to make you smile.
memories locked at Thursday, July 12, 2007
this is my number 6 !!!
=))
omfg.
its my number 6.
and i am fucking faithful.
and guess what ...
I AM ENGAGED.
*beams.
please don't give me anything negative.
what is right or what is wrong ;
i'd decide.
not that i don't love you guys !!!
=))
BANANA !!!
happy number 6.
i love you tons.
for more to come.
and more psp like gadgets.
heh heh.
i'd blog more tmr.
toodles.
kaaye\.
- the rest is history.
memories locked at Thursday, July 12, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
meet my 3th generation.
just like ... 1/12 of the entire 3th generation.
imagine the ... 1st.
meet ; majong grand mother.
she can say 'pong ; ci ; sek ; wu' ; etc ...
faster then you can say ; FUCK.
the people at my table for the night.
apparently ; my uncle's a minister.
how coolio is that.
=
went for this uberly cool wedding dinner at one fullerton yesterday aka SUNDAY. oh my god. i tell you ... singaporeans are really singaporeans. you tell them 1900hrs. they think 2000hrs. what perfect punctual timing does one really have balls. whichever it was ... the dinner was at one fullerton. so for the love of whatever god you might believe in ; DRESS UP. god. i saw people in short sleeved tops ; tees ; jeans ; sneakers ; etc ; etc ; etc.
i was about to blow balls.
how can you dress so shabbly to a fucking high class hotel for such an occasion like a wedding ??? KNOCK KNOCK ELO ; WAKE UP !!! whichever ... i thought the dinner was really cool. there were like so many people. and to think they are all my relatives that i have never met in my entire fucking life. omfg. and 85% are in the government sector. oh goodness me.
so yes.
today is monday and well ...
its not so fucked up.
PSP ni zai na li.
=))
kaaye\.
- number 6 is on the way.
memories locked at Monday, July 09, 2007