Sunday, April 30, 2006
now what have i been up to.
NOTHING. lif eis just passing me by ... day by day. hour by hour.
went to get my tattoo touch up with my mother. yes
MY MOTHER. did i tell you ??? Its the best thing on earth. i love my tattoo. and its going to be 7 months in like ... 4 days time !!! =)) oh yeah.
so yes. went to work yesterday at wisma. oh my god. mark and i were like busy spotting girls and everything while trying to work ; right. heh. it was th best hing on earth. the hot chicks were pouring in ... and all we could do is smile and look innocent.
OMFG. but it was really great and fun. =))
yup yup. met ... ah hue and ah goh. for a while only ... then met ryan and elton ... heading for some food , then
SMS CAME IN !!! *hails the heavens. heh.
WENNY ASKED US OUT. not that it is something very big , but hue and i were lost as to what to do last night ...
so thank god for the sms. heh.
heading down to bro's place ... slacked ... watch viva la bam. and we contemplated on how much bro can drink. yes ... HALF A GLASS dude ??? =)) oh my gosh. alcohol and wenny don't go. ha ha.
went back with dee ... after which , dee came to pick me up from my place and we went to maxwell for supper !!! ... but everything was so different without my qing ai de. hiaz.
anyways ... we went for some of everything that was there ... and i saw TIN !!! my gay man !!! ha ha. =))
work up today ... almost late for work. and to add on to my very drozzy symp-droms ... my store was packed with people after people after people. the queue never ended. like oh my gosh. it sucked.
anyways ... got home super early. and i am so freaking tired !!! i was soaked from all of my energy !!! ARGH !!!
i am bonging off for more TV.
kaye\.- why am i feeling like this.
how could this get to me.
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Friday, April 28, 2006
let's just see. i am like in my living room using my NEW wireless. heh. came home after like ... getting my tattoo touch up done and everything. super hapy with everything. cause ... the feeling was great. and i am so going to get another tattoo done. SOON. - i know i keep saying it. but ... A TATTOO IS FOR LIFE !!! *glares.
uh huh. then like yeah ... went to look for a new bag. but then ... its either too darn expensive or ... too ugly. gosh.
WHATEVER.
which in turn ... cause my very depressive mood at the moment. god damn it. i don't know what the hell i am feeling ... just that i know that ... i am a little more then just pissed. gosh.
WENNY'S ANSWER TO HER QUESTION -dude. if you die. the first thing i am going to do ... is to ask god why didn't he take me along with you. though i don't meet you much , but you do have a big impact on my life. and i hope you know it.
i will miss the way you give me the 'say somemore and i will SMACK your head' look , who is going to discretly look at girls with me when we go out with the secretaries , who am i goin to rely on to somehow go clubbing , etc , etc. yes yes. dude , small things are the important things to me ; not the big stuff.
so yes. if one day you die. ... well ... i will DEFINATELY BE DEPRESSED. i swear. =)) know that i love you. *muacks.
kaye\.
- nothing i say is ever going to bring you back.
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Thursday, April 27, 2006
okie. so i have been having very bad moods these few days ... am i sorry about it ??? NO. why ??? cause they deserve this kinda treatment. i got angry with my mother ... for like 3 days in a row. she deserved it. she knew it. dad's on my side. i still am not talking to her.
i had enough with bowing to her and to worship the ground that she walks on. she's not the empress. even if she was ... i don't give 2 hoots about her farking status. whichever it is ... i have never been more pissed with my mother till yesterday.
she got scared. apologized and practically hope that i was okie with her.
BUT I AM NOT.
HA.
i am so not okie with the whole shit. seriously.
school has been giving me so much stress ... i am kicking my shoes off and heading back to locking myself in my room to revise physics over nad over again. circuits over and over again. till i get every single thing sorted out.
HA.
HOW NICE.
whichever it is ... i am under ton loads of stress. i don't need anymore shit to bother my very stressful life for the moment and everything. ...
strawberry ice creams at 3 am in the morning do the trick most of the time ... but i am just waiting for the trend of it to end. gawd damn it. i am farking stressed. i need to club ...
in ... 4 days. in 4 days everything will be fine. everything will be.
kaye\.
- i want to thank god for you.
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
i am so not going to mince my words anymore. i think i had enough of the whole shit thing. cause for once ... i think i can't control anymore !!! ARGH !!! so yes. i have sat and waited. sat and waited. sat and waited again and again. i am so getting very tired of the whole thing. i can tell that i myself is ... or are ... on the verge of breaking down again OR giving everything up. cause i can't take this shit anymore. everything is just happening like everything should be. for those who's life is in such a bliss. but guess what ... mine isn't. i am burdened with everything in my life. the weight is getting so heavy ... i can't stand the weight any longer. ... don't ask why. how long am i going to wait ??? i ask myself that every single morning i awake , to a brand new day. how long am i going to wait. just HOW LONG. cause you know why ??? i can't any longer. my heart's dying.everything about me is just superficial. i really don't know how long i can just hang in there. cause ... if everything really dies ... how in the world am i going to carry on. even though i have friends to be there. ... how long will i last before i break down. again.i hate my life. its not perfect ... and guess what ... waiting is a game ... i don't think that i can wait any longer. this sucks. so badly ... i am asking myself why. kaye\.- leave me. please. once and for all.
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Monday, April 24, 2006
there's no doubt in my mind when it's overwhat is done will be.you will find when life gets colder there's no sympathy.there's no point trying you can't escape the bitter end.well who will greet you when you're at the bitter end.all your choices chosen you've got no say.your decisions made.face your consequences as your life begins to fade.as time keeps spinning closer to the bitter end.well who will greet you when you're at the bitter end.=i can take about everything and anything. but i cannot take an irritating facilitator who does nothing but question my intelligence. fine. i am not engineering stuff , but hey i am putting in effort to know what voltages and ohms are !!! gawd damn it. i am so farking pissed. i swear i am. like what the heck is going on in your mother fucking head. come on la !!! i am putting in effort. at least i am trying. gawd damned it. i wish i can break his farking back. so yes. this is and what has been happening to day. this so sucks. ARGH !!! i don't get it. i hate this apnn who looks like a stupid impressination of superman. damn it. ANYWAYS ... school cannot get more interesting. not that i am complaining or anything. but then again ... the weather is getting on my nerves ... and i slowly devour the images of me killing my apnn facilitator. uh - huh. yesterday it was raining. so no swimming for me. wei wei and i were on our way home and we met these 2 very interesting couples. its so interesting ... its PORN. damn farking disguisting. i swear they should have just gotten a room or something. never mind. there is ... so many things to look forward to ... I HAVE NO SCHOOL TOMORROW !!! and guess what ... i am like going to go out with ling and everything. i can't wait. ... and i mean xiao ling. cause she has got no school either !!! wee wee.and tomorrow i have to go to the NAVY. please sms me and wish me luck. cause i need all the lucky stars and all the lucky charms I can get in the world. I HAVE TO BE PES B. I WANT TO BE PES B. gawd damned it. ... let's just hope everything will turn out fine. ... -.-" vanessa - thanks for the ice cream. =)) you really made me happy. its been long. but ... yeah !!! *smiles. *bongs off to fantasy. kaye\.- and then you start to think.was were you thinking.
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Sunday, April 23, 2006
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cause you are not the only one.
take it from me.
all i need is you to make me.
till the twlight zone. SUNDAY Let's see. Everything is and was so boring. Came home after work … which was pretty interesting … then slacked till the sky went all pitch dark. Watched EMPIRE on HALLMARK. OMFG. It’s the best show on earth !!! Its uber nice to watch !!! ARGH !!! Casear Rawks my socks off … And that Gladiator … damn. The show is just UBEER GOOD.
MONDAYIts another week. And it spells another week in school. I can't wait till Wednesday. I hope I am Pes A but I am so assured that I will
ONLY BE PES B. DAMN IT. I am so freaking excited for the NAVY shit. I can't wait to go there. I wonder what is going to be done man. ECG maybe ??? Heh. Sticky Stuff. Woo …
Anyways … school is all about binary again. Not that I am complaining. I kinda like it actually. It is just that understanding it is the main chore. Everything else about school … kinda rocks.
Wait. Did I mention … I forgot to bring my charger to school ??? Like … YEAH. I am the smartest person on earth.
WHICH WOULD EXPLAIN WHY MY BAG IS SO LIGHT TODAY !!! Gawd damn it.
Ohwells.
I miss hue man. And guess wad … another 7 or 8 more days to thumper … *drools. I need a NET BADLY. `ELP. And guess wad … everyone is going !!! This is so going to be fun. Eric can get grinned all over again … =)) *beams.
Shots are going to be compulsary. Heh. Can't wait can't wait !!!
Kaye\. - This shit is about to get heavy.
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
know what know what know what !!! THE FARKING SINGAPORE NAVY CALLED ME ON THURSDAY !!! which then lead me to ... this very big ... burst. cause ... i am totally unfit. and not to mention , i have got no more stamina anymore !!! considering the only stamina that i have has everything to do with clubbing , alcohol and girls. *GLARES.
whichever it is ... once the phone call came ... i rushed right down to the swimming pool ... i had no choice !!! i was so scared i was OVER WEIGHT. if you have been my friends long enough ... you would know ... i was FAT. VERY FAT !!! thank god i lost the weight. anyways ... i was so scared that i was over weight !!!
but thanks ... to the school's BMI thang in the library ... i FOUND OUT THAT I AM NOT OVER WEIGHT !!! wee ... you don't know how happy i am ... i swear. =))
so happy so happy. ar ar ar !!! and i have to go for medial check up on wednesday. *cries.
thumper is coming. i am NOT OVER WEIGHT. and i am happy. just one thing ... how do i know what to wear for thumper ... i am in such a lost right now. gosh. i DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR !!! and ... according to my ever dearest PTS ... i NEED A NET. ... and i think ... i do. =)) *beams in delight.
*bongs off to do push ups.
=)) i don't know why i am so happy. but then again ... i guess that i do. heh.
kaye\.
- she really makes me happy. =))
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
i detest school.
but i abhor strange people.
but i hate you more.
HA.
as everyone might know by now ... i am in engineering school. and i deal with circuits , physics and everything you have never seen inside the radio or fridge of yours. yes. i am serious.
and due to that ... i deal with wires which have a cute rubber or plastic coating to protect my delicate arse from getting electricuted. yes. whichever it is ... i have failed in my many atempts of trying to cut off the rubber / plastic coating to fulfill my circuit requirements ... and today.
TODAY.
yes , today. I HAVE MASTERED TEH ART OF CUTTING THE RUBBER OFF THE WIRES. i am so happy. the happy cells in my body are multiplying at a very fast rate ... i am going to go on hyper drive ... even faster then you can say ... kaye's hot. HA. DANG or ROLL YOUR eyes at the screen as much as you want ... i am happy i can cut a simple thing like ... WIRES. HA.
okie ... its the last day of school. everything is ... i think on a good note and its going to be a good wrap up for the week. i think. until ... just now. i think i saw something my eyes might have wanted to avoid. which i don't think it could. but which ever ...
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
i am not going to let it destroy my happy hyper mood.
ha. hope i am meeting hue later. i miss her and my ah toh. i miss everyone in fact ... i miss bro ... i miss ling ... i miss gel ... i miss denyse ... i miss esther ... AR ... LONG LINE MORE LA.
whichever ... i am going to bong off for more ... wire cutting and rejoying in that. wee ... =))
kaye\.- nah. its alright. do what you plase. when you want to.
i am invisible.
or at least - i want to be.
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Monday, April 17, 2006
let's see i am in school. i am bored. and i have got no idea what resistence or ohms mean. which also spells that i am slacking at this very moment in time. currently , my school has moved. to a very far place , called woodlands. its interesting to know that ... it takes an hour to travel to school and about the same time back.
i swear. its worse then heading down to hell and back every single day. its the same routine. thank god for my free wednesdays. heh. i don't have to come to shcool on wednesdays for year 2's !!! and guess what ... the feeling of heading to school is horrid. i hate the train rides. they are long and endless. *swears in hokkien.
okie ... so let's see. read bro's blog before blogging. and let's see ... its time for my dream. heh.
i've dreamt. of a perfect career. i've always wanted to be a teacher ; though i know that i don't look any part of it. i know i know. i want to be a university lecturer. its fun. i get to share my passions with the rest of the class who ... too have the same passion for it as i do. i want to do philosophy , english and old literature. i've always wanted to.
the joy in talking to students about why they want to take up that particular subject. the joy in reading articles after articles of reports of which , tingle my brain cells. - its starting to sound stupid. but ... its my DREAM !!!
the kind of perfect life. drive to school in my bmw every single day, head home the same way to a magnificient house by the beach. just in time for the sunset. i see my significant other awaiting my arrival , we sit on that particular bench.
and watch the sun set.
the rays penatrating my eyes and reflect a soft luminiscent orange-red view of the no-so-vulnerable sun. with my arms in hers and hers in mine. i watch the magnificient wonder of the earth spining on an invisible axis ... and await for the dark spectacle of the night.
that. would be my dream.
it'd be the nicest of them all. i hope.
kaye\.
- bongs off for more resistence and ohms.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
how long i'd wait,
just to say good bye.
ten different ways to enjoy this night.
can't do this anymore.
can't feel you anymore.
how long i'd wait just to say good bye.
you could never let me in.
holding on until the end.
the time i waste ,
just to say goodbye.
=
its amazing how we are all so caught up in everything out there to the extent that , sometimes ... we fail to see ourselves from the outside. as in , taking ourself out and then look at ourself. look at what we are , what we are doing and ya da ya da.
okie ... enough of blabbing. i hate this emotional shit.
went to hue's house and i am still at hue's house since yesterday. heh. we went clubbing !!! wee wee. ha ha. first to devil's then to phunk bar. which is very interesting. ... both places have good music. its the ambience and the people that make the place not much of the 'fun factor'.
which is pretty interesting. there was this pretty interesting bitach ... WHO FOR GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON kept staring at my ah hue. haha. and guess what we DID !!! =)) we pissed that damn bitach of a cunt outta her pants. wee ... when she was back to staring at hue ... i kissed hue on her cheeks to piss her off. and then ... you should have just seen her ... 'wow' face. farking interesting ... oh my god.
and then the rest is history !!! i think that ... i got uber high. cause the rest was in a big big big mess. went to maxwell to eat. then ... went home i think. as in went back to hue's place.
yup yup. my eyes aree now the size of a line. i swear. its so tiny. ... it happens. i figure.
and then i am off.
kaye\.
- how long i'd wait.
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
I am currently very adicted to lifehouse's breathing. Its got to be the phatest song on earth. And little did i know , i actually have the lifehouse CD at home. I found it last night. ha ha. lol. how dumb can i get man. wait ... don't answer. whichever it is ... I HAVE BEEN CLUBBING MY ARSE OFF with ah hue and toh. heh. monday was drinking at lao di fang , tuesday was thumper , wednesday was momo. and THURSDAY ... i am dead. ha ha. tired till my muscles ache. yes ... till now its aching !!! tian. whichever it is man. it was dead fun hanging out with them and all.ESPECIALLY TUESDAY !!! damn it. the girls were hot and everything about the place and music was phat. woot. what i loved the most is that ... the people there are nice and all. heh. ohh ... not forgetting i got molested when i was in less then 5 mins !!! how indecent can people get. digging into people's PANTS !!! 'elp !!! whichever ... then came wednesday ... wee wee. its such an -ing's outing !!! heh. everything was great and good. the music was even better. momo live was damn good. heh. can't stand it man !!! ARGH !!! clubbing is back into my life. and i so can't wait for tomorrow !!! its round ... [i think i lost count. heh.]ogay ogay. the rest is history !!! ar ... i miss PE01-07. - sobs.-- I LOVE ANDROGYNOUS GIRLS !!! ARGH !!! THEY ARE SO HOTT.-kaye\.how do you say i miss you.wait.can i even state that i do.
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