never saw it coming.
i should have started running.
Thursday, June 28, 2007 my love. buah haha. chocolate was never meant to be this nice !!! and not to mention ... fulfilling.
look at it closely. its PI PA GAO !! that comes in a drink form !! =))
kaaye\.
memories locked at Thursday, June 28, 2007
the one above is xiao ling. my best web cam partner. YES. this is what we actually get done in school.
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so i was bored on the train on the way to school ... and i started to think of alot of different ways to spell different rather provocative words ??? in a sense. but to me they are all the same. take for an example ; horrific. it can be spelt as 'whore - ri - fic.' get it. then there is also gay. which can be spelt as 'ger-a-ye.' =)) i know am no genius. i was just fucking bored on the way to school.
i am addicted to this chocolate snack called pillows. omfg. i think its the cheapest ; nicest snack i can find in this concrete fortress called school. whichever it is ... school has left me more then just messed up. it has left me so so so ... stressed and DISCOMBOBULATED and more then just petrified of mondays. omfg. i tell you .... (rants on with as much curse language i know. no its not just one ling-go. its like ... 1 , 2 , 3 , ... ...)
I HATE SCHOOL. we have labby later. and i am going to camera whore. now all i am short off are my poly mates. DOCTOR KAYE IS HERE. aka amateur gy-nah-co- lo-gist. =)) you up for a try ???
kaaye\.
- i wanna mambo.
memories locked at Thursday, June 28, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
i am a person that is all the way to the extremes. you know its like ... you know ... either you are or you are not.i don't like going grey on anything. anyways ... i know i have said this countless of times. but you know what ... i am starting to eat durian. and you know ... ITS DURIAN SEASON NOW !!! buah ha ha. i can't wait for friday.
there's this durian stall in chinatown. which sells really cheap durian ... like 5 bucks for a med - large sized one. omfg. and its uberly creamy and all. uberly nice. =)) friday friday friday. FRIDAY I AMMA GONNA GO !!!
school stinks from monday all the way to thursday (today). and i can already forsee that it is going to suck tomorrow too !!!tell me i am psychic. i can fortell me bitter future. when it comes to school that is. omfg. saturday seems more then just a day away.
and to add on to the mess. i have lab work tomorrow. DOCTOR KAYE IS IN DA HOUSE !!! (i am going to take alot of pictures tomorrow. in that lab. so that i can reports back to this blog of mine and also ... to diss my girlfriend off.*beams.)
kaaye\.
- heard it all before. doesn't matter what they say.
memories locked at Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
omfg. i am so bored in school , i started doing quizes. i tell you ... its F*ing interesting. buah haha. go do some. =))
You Are Trinity
"Touch me and that hand will never touch anything again."
A total dreamer, you spend most of your time with your head in the clouds. You often think of the future, and you are always working toward your ideal life. Also nostalgic, you rarely forget a meaningful moment... even those from long ago.
Men see you as flirtatious, but they also see you as a challenge Because you're totally fearless and carefree You've got the lightheartedness of a blonde, with the attitude of a redhead
You Can Make 78% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You
Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal. Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you! As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.
Your kisses are definitely sexy, but you're not about to make anyone gasp for air. You take it slow and steady... and you ramp things up when you get the right signals. Your kissing style is adaptable and adept. And people who kiss you love it!
You're a pretty jealous person, and you've started to let it really effect your life. While it's natural to feel a little envious of what people have, it's never healthy to take it to these extremes. Focus on what you've got going on. And improve on the things you don't like. Being truly happy with yourself is the only way to chase out the green eyed monster!
Enthusiastic and intense, there's so much you love in the world... it's hard to do it all. You are good at getting things to mix - friends, flavors, hobbies. You're the master of fusion!
i hate mondays. and its like happening to me every single week. which is definately like a pain in my fucking arse. oh yes oh yes. i found this new term. its called 'LIC GAS'. which then means ... 'like i could give a shit'. i diss mondays. and you won't believe how impeccably small my eyes are now. gawd damned it. i hate this.
i walk alone. think about home. memories of long ago. no one knows i lost my soul long ago.
lied too much. she said she had enough. am i too much. she said she has enough.
standing on my own. remembering the one i left at home. forget about the life i used to know. forget about the one i left at home.
i need to run far away. i can't go back to that place. like she told me. i am a big disgrace.
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okay. so the weekend wasn't that great. alot of arguements. no i didn't enjoy it a single bit. i don't know what is going wrong with me. oh yes i think its me. all me.
i don't know what is wrong with banana and i. but we keep arguing and i can't take it anymore. cause i hate arguments. i don't know !!! god damned it. ...
whichever the case. if you are reading this : 'i still love you like i did the first time i told you i did. from that moment you walked into my life. i have and i would always do.'
kaaye\.
- tastes like you. only sweeter.
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watch this. its the video about making vegetarian cheese burgers. no wenny i don't have a problem with you being vegan. BY A GAY GUY. who i think is kinda cute anyway. =x
memories locked at Sunday, June 24, 2007
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
okay. so this is the low down. i hate school not cause its boring or that i don't like the company its more of the MORNINGS. oh hell yes. i hate mornings. they suck more then ... ... more then ... durian ice cream. (like you didn't already know i don't really like durians.) well whichever the case is ... I HATE MORNINGS !!!
its too early for anyone's brain to function.its down right despicable. for any human to think and deem that learning in the morning is better then anytime of the day. my white flat arse it is. oh my god. its so so so ... NOT !!!i study better at night with the help of any form of snacking and erm ... a little alcohol to give me motivation.
school's been fucking tough. i hate it. its a whole shit load of nonsense alright. its another ... one and a half months more before the holidays. someone tell me. how can you COME TO SCHOOL WITH FULL ATTENDENCE !!!??? omfg. elp. i can just keep swearing till the cows come home. (which they rarely do) on how much i hate mornings. god damned it.
kaaye\.
- i never measured up anyhow.
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watch this. i love the song.
memories locked at Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Sunday, June 17, 2007
okay okay. here's the update from the weekend.
thursday.
i did something kinda horrid. i ran out of my house just to meet banana in the middle of the night after her shift at play. and no i don't feel the least good about it. i actually feel guilty. oh my god. my conscience is like somehow coming back to me.damn it.
had breakfast in her very drunken state and i swear ... i lost it. but i don't think she was sober enough to see it.
- what is the point of me going down to fetch you to get home if you are going to be in this 'high' state all the time. you made me rush down only to know in the end ... i had to wait for you. its not the first ... but i know its not going to be the last of such nonsense.its always like that.
friday.
i can't really remember. oh yeah. i sent her off to work ... then headed to meet wei wei and ling at vivo. oh man we had quite alot of fun !!! =)) walked around ... snacked all over the place. had a super hard time finding jeans. cause of ... *coughs. yeah yeah. then then ... erm ... went to this cafe. its superly nice. i am going to bring banana there next time we get our arses to harbour.
then the both of us headed off to get esther's present and to get to her bbq !!! it was esther's b'dae !!! =)) the bbq food was really nice. then we went to watch fantastic 4. then ... headed home.
i have been watching fantastic 4 since i was a kid. and NO. galactis did not die. HE CANNOT DIE. and silver surfer will never go against or betray him for that matter.its all wrong wrong wrong. god damned it. THE DIRECTOR KAYU !!! nah bei. waste my money.
saturday.
stayed home. okay ... see right there's this uberly nice jap place at tiong barhu plaza. oh yes. HEARTLAND PEOPLE's MALL. anyways ... its really nice and their salmon sashimi is like ... GODLY. ha ha. whichever it is right ... its damn nice and lynn and i are more then just addicted to it. nah bei.
had that for lunch. walked around. i bought myself the cutest froggy bank you can ever find in the world !!! and not forgetting really nice headphones. =)) went home watch the prince and me 2. then she had to go off cause she had dinner.
i slacked all the way at home. ... went over to her place like really late in the night. stayed for a bit then headed home.
sunday.
its baking day !!! =)) i baked banana cakes and apple german pancakes. they both turned out great. then the usual for the sunday thing.
=))
today's the first day of school. and i am tired. what a start.
kaaye\.
- hit me with your best shot.
memories locked at Sunday, June 17, 2007
Thursday, June 14, 2007
see darlings ; i have this things about dreaming. you know how certain things mean something and certain things mean something so so so much more then what they only seem to be. yes yes. that kinda thing. i have been having dreams. of the same person. that very person could be and might just be ; my person.
no no. names are not going to to mentioned. you just fill in the blanks and hit me with an answer.
this is the most recent one :
i was at this place. i think it was some garden of somesort. it was really really nice. with all the greens and all the cute ducks swimming in this fat arse pond and all that. oh yes. that kinda thing. i am so so so sick and tired of listening to the trees and as i start to run around the park ; this person calls out my name and asks me where i was headed to.
saying something like ... 'you were supposed to wait there till i got back'. apparently the person went to get something that i always loved. she was the first person who got me flowers anyway. for my birthday. no i didn't forget and i don't think i ever might just do.
i laid there in her arms and the scene changed into a hospital.i was dying or some sort. i saw lots of tubes and lines and hospital associated shitty stuffs all over the place. she was there. holding me ; hugging me to sleep. (yes yes. HURRAY actually. but i don't know why i was fretting in the dream.)
i told her she meant the world to me ; she started crying. saying something like i am not going to make it through this final round. that she knew that what she did was wrong. and ... alot of others ... etc , etc , etc ... 0.o
hell yes. i miss her.
kaaye\.
- keeps these dreams ; they ain't mine anymore.
memories locked at Thursday, June 14, 2007
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
this is NUM-BA FIVE !!! =))
she seems more excited then me.
who won't love this.
HAPPY NUMBER 5 BABY DEAREST !!! =))
elo. nice nice dustbin.
step one. buy good champange.
step two. try pouring without dripping.
step three. G-O-N-E.
zao an ni hao. ming tian hui gen bu hao. (elo hangover.)
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happy number 5 darling !!! hello people. 5 gruelling months with banana !!! and i am (i think) still very very much in love with BANANA. =)) she makes me happy. all so very very sing-ingly happy. and each time we spend it at sentosa ... we have to go to new zealand's naturals to take the counter picture. (i know its lame. ha ha.)
i love you. many many more months to come. till next month's anni.
kaaye\.
- but i love you. until the end of time. come what may.
memories locked at Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
you know. i don't really know what to type for this entry of mine. i don't really have much to say ; really. cept for the fact that ... i don't get something. why do people say one thing ; and then do the direct opposite.
case one.
my grand mother is helping me get money back from that woman every single month. then when i ask her for the money that she is giving me back in installments ... my grandmother goes nuts. like ??? isn't it my money ??? ELO ??? *knock knock. i don't get it. and she makes me feel bad about taking the money. but isn't the money mine in the first place ?
case two.
why the hell are people so fucking irritating. let me try make this as subtile as possible ... i feel used. if you want to know more. inquire within. i feel neglected by this person. i feel used. cause the only thing this person calls for is for a favour. never to ask me ... 'how i you' or ... 'you are missed'. its been so long. and she's being the biggest hypocrate i have ever met. she built everything up so high. but only to realize that the foundations were never there. and BANG !!! everything is gone. why. and she is doing so. even without knowing.
i hate life now. i don't quite understand it right.
kaaye\.
- always the bridesmaid ; never the bride.
memories locked at Wednesday, June 06, 2007
Saturday, June 02, 2007
SATURDAY
tong tong's !!!
i swear these key holders are the cutest things on earth.
MINE !!!
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FRIDAY
my favourite wine.
the kachang puteh bowl got small.
as retarded as usual.
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buah ha ha. anyways ... i had a really funny weekend. friday was la la. but i skiped school and decided that holidays needed to be started earlier. ha ha. and not to mention , i delivered lunchy to banana !!! =))
she came over after work ... we headed to wine connection form town. cause town was fucking boring. then ... yeah. headed home. she tucked me into bed !!! buah ha ha.
on saturday ... met my grams and her at the same time. gram wanted to get her handphone changed and stuff. so ... yeah. headed for tea ... then we started shopping !!! buah ha ha. rather it was more of her and less of me. shopping's in the way. ate at kiliney road. it was really nice. breakfast for dinner. ha ha.
headed to watch zodiac. and i swear ... it was a long long movie. and it was kinda draggy. my butt almost had blisters. erm ... headed home afterwards.
we are now very lazy people. and i hate my dad.
kaaye\.
- all those killings ; why can't it be you.
memories locked at Saturday, June 02, 2007
all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.
likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.
dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.
wish list\. that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants. that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!! that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack. that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans. that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.