Thursday, March 29, 2007
AND NOW I AM BACK FROM OUTER SPACE !!!!i know you missed me.buah ha ha. i got back from KL like ... on wednesday night.
went there with banana !!! oh man. it was damn fucking fun.
the food is cheap ; their sale is to die for and not forgetting ... they have dunkin' donuts !!! and guess wad ...
i bought one and a half dozen back to singapore !!! buah ha ha. hand carried them for my little mei mei. ha ha. i bet you ... she loves them more then me.
I BET YOU.anyways ...
banana and i went there for like ... 3 days and 2 nights.day one.reached KL at like ... 2 ??? cause there was really
bad traffic all the way. and then there were no cabs. blah blah blah. then then then ... we went to check into the hotel.
i pissed her off by jumping on the bed like it was a trapezie. then ... we went to walk around our hotel. went to bukit bintang ; lot 10 and sugei wang. had lunch. walked more. went back to the hotel to wait for
capri !!! =))
she brought us to the curve. we had dinner ... then ... went back to the hotel for an
entire drinking session ... i will never forget. and then ... SLEEP !!!
day two.we went to ... KLCC in the day.
they have a wonderful range of like cafes that have like ... wine and everything. all facing this huge water thingy. [ i never really went close enuff to check them out.] then ... walked around.
AND THE SHOPPING BEGAN. ha ha.
fcuk is fucking cheap. BUT ;
its only on the girl's clothes. trust me ... banana was going bonkers
trying to buy something.
walked walked.
met my god aunt and uncle. had tea at dome. for one ... their dome is so much better than that of singapore's. then ...
they have really good affagato. damn it. it makes you hyper. then we hitched a ride to megamall. walked around. bought some stuff.
AND THEN WE WENT TO A JAP PLACE FOR DINNER. and a
spendid conversation between banana and the owner went like this.
owner : 'hello ; welcome.'
banana : 'hello.'
owner : 'table for ???'
banana : '2 please.'
owner : 'would that be smoking or non - smoking ???'
banana :
'SMOKING !!!!'
for one thing right ... its a restraunt !!! its not like some ... cheap - o place and everything people. its some ... high end thingy. damn it.
so fun. and then of course. ... just cause we don't have it in singapore ...
WE SMOKED. ha ha. so lame right ...
met
capri after dinner. she brought us to like this arty farty theatre thingy. which has like a jap place in the middle of a pond and tons of koi. really cool if you ask me. then ... erm ... we walked around ... bro brought us to petaling street.
CAUTION PEOPLE : IF YOU HAVE ANY BRANDED STUFF. PLEASE DON'T GO TO PETALING STREET. DON'T !!!the reason to which ...
they have everything pirated. everything you want from like LV or like tiffany and co. they have it. and it looks so real ... you wonder whatis the difference. banana and i felt cheated.
BLOODY CHEATED TO BE EXACT. went to a mamak aka kopitian for supper. slacked. talked and laughed. and then ... went back.
day three.went to the chinese market near our hotel. and i don't know why ...
banana loves that place.
and it was a miracle i remembered how to walk there. then ... went to KLCC. had a good lunch. walked around ...
bought the donuts !!! then then ... went back to fcuk to get her pair of shoes. then ... WA LA.
BACK TO SINGAPORE WE CAME.=
it was a really good trip.and i really miss the times that we spent there.
cause now she's working.and yes. things are going to change a little.
not forgetting. bro , dee and pts came to pick me up.=))
i'd upload the pics the next time.
loves to all.
kaaye\.- all the things we have done.
memories locked at Thursday, March 29, 2007
Sunday, March 25, 2007
that's
banana and i. while waiting for my sister's ptc meeting on friday.
=
yup yup. i went back to sch again.
stc people. stc. went to go get my sister's report card and then headed back down town with banana. went to creme bristro ; banana was teaching my sister maths. and i sat there in the biggest daze ever ... cause ...
maths and me ain't good buddies. then went for a
fantastic steak dinner. sister went home ...
went to watch TMNT !!! ha ha.
those were like my childhood favourites. oh man.
i loved it as much still as ever !!! i think i am
going to get the toys. buah ha ha. i love them.
ralph is as irritating as ever. and micheal is as dumb and irritating. buah ha ha. then headed home. banana stayed for a bit then left not long after.
- that was for friday.SATURDAY !!! i met esther.
we baked cupcakes. buah ha ha. =)) it turned out pretty well ... baked them for the kids. ha ha. then ... banana came. drank. had dinner at home. heded to 95. stayed there for a bit. then headed to mos.
okay ...
so the night wasn't really good. we were arguing like there was no tomorrow. frankly ... its all okay now. but ... but but ...
she was throwing a bitch fit so much ... i wanted to take off. ...
so so so badly ... but
my legs didn't move a muscle. i hated that feeling. NO. the thought of breaking off didn't occur. BUT ... i keep asking myself why ...
WHY DIDN'T I TAKE OFF. got home at 7 am. and ... woke up at 1045am.
matthew's birthday. and like ... i had to be there. met banana at gram's. but her bag down. headed to hougang. i was having a fucking moody morning. had lunch. dazed around. had cake. went home. HAD A NAP WITH BANANA !!! then went to river valley and cold storage. went to get snacks. FOR TOMORROW !!!
I AM GOING TO LEAVE FOR KL TOMORROW MORNING.trust me.
i'd be missing you guys.=))
kaaye\.- its all said and done ;but i'm still living in the past.
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
there are 5 rules to my life.
how many do you have ?these 5 keep me from going
too much into insanity.they keep me a little above sane.sane enough to operate by myself.
and yet ;insane enough to risk everything.as follows :
1. love all ; serve all. be false to none. [fuck ethics ; when needed.]
2. play as much as you want with your 'partner' ; but not with emotions.
3. love your friends and cherish them at all times.
4. love your family more then they are worth.
5. listen and appreciate music ; in every mood possible.first rule's the most important.
when you love everyone. creates less conflicts. reduces stress ; eye bags ; wrinkles ... etc. etc. the lists carries on and on. and when decisions need to be made.
fuck ethics. ha ha. =))
i love the second rule. my dad actually said that ...
' not everyone can smoke reds. only an elite few can.' same goes with players. cause only a few survive in playing a fool with the girl or guy that the person has attracted.
NOT EVERYONE SURVIVES. only an elite few can carry on living life ; like such. i never complained much about my singlehood or that the one that
i really want never came back. it was fun being a player. to be labled as one ...
is already 'something' to some people. but at the end of the day ...
the player is the loneliest person on the face of this earth. from experience ; the glitx and glamour of being one is not as good as it seems.
when the day turns to night. and there is
no human warmth next to you , you'd get to know the feeling.
and only dread it all too well. friends are the most important things. they are your
chosen family. even though sometimes it might be hard not to backstab them when the going gets tough. but ... its not about the quantity of friends.
not the 'i have ALOT of friends' ... but more of ...
how many good close friends do you really really have. some are just surface. and shouldn't be called friends. accquantiances is a much better word to use ; in that case.
family ; needless to say.
blood is thicker then water. no matter how much you hate to love them. or hate them for some wierd or irritating things that they do.
they are the ones that will love you and cherish you more then anyone of the face of this earth would. i love music. i don'tknow about you. it keeps me sane. and ... its the best thing. the one above created. a song for every occassion. for an example ... when i am all so emotional and sad and everything ... i never want to hear 'CHASING CARS'
cause it just makes you worse. or
when i am in a happy mood i like to hear RETRO !!! you can't go wrong with them.
i don't know about you.
do you have rules to life ???
kaaye\.- nothing more then to hear you sing.baby girl you make me sing.
memories locked at Tuesday, March 20, 2007
i wanna grow old with you.i want to die lying in your arms.i want to grow old with you.i want to be looking into your eyes.i want to be there for you.sharing everything you do.i want to grow old with you.a thoughtsand miles between us now.it causes me to wonder how.our love tonight.remains so strong.it makes our risks ...right all along.the time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger.but it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.i want to grow old with you.I WANT TO GROW OLD WITH YOU. =
here i am eating
my favoutire redcurrant puffs from marks and spencer ; and i can't help but ponder.
where would everyone be in like 5 years time ??? have you thought about it. as in seriously ; sat down and thought about what and where this life of yours would lead you. depending on the mediocre or major choices that you make at this very tempreamental state in your life.
let's see. i hope to see ...
wenny aka bro. i want to see her landing a very stable and good paying job. along with
dee aka my little chilli padi. and i hope that they get the jobs that people are kinda vying for with
very very good payouts of course. and not to mention. i hope that we are still in very much contact.
with house parties in each of our houses and everything else like that once or twice a month.i hope
wei wei is in the uni studying to be what she realkly wants to be. a pathologist. my dearest
xiao ling to be a business guru or something. and
esther to be a successful auditor in one of the major companies that
ALSO PAYS GOOD. ha ha.
i want to see everyone in that light. rather in that situation.
i want to rank somewhere in the clouds by then. in the navy. and
hopefully. i get what i really really want. =))
a small house ; a wife ; 2 dogs ; 2 cars and the closest of friends. that makes me the happiest.
-kaaye\.- before its too late.what about now.
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
first we run ;then we laugh till we die.wehn the night is falling.you cannot find the light.you feel like the dreams are dying.hold tight.you got the music in you.don't let go.you got the music in you.one dance left.you're going to pull through.=
my blog entires have been ... somewhat ... fluctuating and everythign else. but ... yes. whichever it is ... these few days have been like ... sleepless. and erm ... super hectic. to the extent that i can't seem to know what to do next.
CAUSE I AM SO FUCKING BUSY FOR SOME WIERD FAT ASS REASON !!! =)) been going out out out. with
banana of course !!! ha ha. =)) i am not complaining.
got a new bag and lego ; courtesy of banana !!! and then ... i got a new spring field jacket. ... oh i love it. its like light brown. really nice.
change phone.don't change phone.I DON'T KNOW.
kaaye\.- everytime i look into your eyes.i know you're something so much more.
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
you know it ;
when everything fals into place so nicely and everything else.
you know.
you know it.
you know that something along those lines ...
something massive ; is going to take place.and i am just waiting.=))
and its going to be something bad.
only bad.kaaye\.- beyond your eyes.what do you really see.
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Monday, March 12, 2007
its our day. =)) number 2.sentosa.
under our little umbrella.
wenny's little creation. =))
the one i can't live without. =))
she makes me all so very very happy.
=
LAO PO aka BANANA.=))
happy number 2 !!!we actually made it this far.
and i never want to think of a
me and you.cause i always want an
'us'.
as always ;
my silly banana.i love you.
kaaye\.- you make everything so colourful ;and simple.
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Sunday, March 11, 2007
ever felt like you didn't belong.like some thing some where is so wrong.
and
yet you can't say or do anything in your very own defense. cause for some very wierd reason ...
you just don't. and you always
always wonder why. something's never quite right. ... ever.
but you grind your teeth and just sit it through. always. for perculiar reasons. you always wonder why.
that's all that ever happens. over and over.
i don't know.
i feel like i don't really belong.anywhere.kaaye\.- with just one touch.
memories locked at Sunday, March 11, 2007
Friday, March 09, 2007
maturity doesn't come with age.apparently ...
maturity doesn't come with age. or rather some people are
just lacking so much of it ... they are then characterized as a term we all commonly use -
'childish'.
like back stabbing ; grudge bearing ; tell tale ; two face ; hypocrate subjects out there who still can't get that childishness out of their system. a thing where by ... you need to get out of your system
by the time that you are 18. [ given the benefit of doubt.] but ...
some people just don't. and in the end ... they become a proclaimed 'bitch' of some sort.
oh yes.
some people just can't get it through their thick skull that ... there is a need to be mature about
certian things that had happened in the past that needs to be
long forgotten and well ... forgotten. then again ... i can't really bother about subjects like such ... they just
take my brain space.
[ of which ... its said that i am a little lacking of. ] =
i went to herstory last night. it was great. cept for a few parts where by
i kinda almost lost my top. but whichever the entire thing is ...
i had a great time. alot of alcohol ; which
never got me high or drunk. then there was ...
alot of great company !!! =)) though it could get better. but ... yeah. as long as
banana is there along with dee and a few of the rest ... the night is good as it is already. but ...
there were so many more people !!! ha ha. music wasn't too bad either. oh yeah ...
it was actually a pretty good ... night. =))
then woke up at a god forbbiden timing of 10. cause ...
banana wanted breakfast !!! ha ha. lol. whichever ... after which we headed to the IT SHOW AT SUNTEC !!!
whichever it is !!! i got myself a external hard drive. a seagate one. and also a thumb drive for my grammy.
its freaking cheap at the IT fair. oh man !!! ha ah. but then it was so crowded.
banana was going nuts cause ... computers and her don't exactly quite fit. ha ha. which then again ... makes her so freaking cute !!! =)) ha ha.
kaaye\.- there in your still eyes ; lies something so much more.
memories locked at Friday, March 09, 2007
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
my goodness people.
i woke up to a very good surprise.
they are finally featuring ...
GID on MIND YOUR BODY !!! this section of the daily enwspapers. like oh my goodness.
are they even allowed to do they like ... in public and be so open about the entire matter ?? oh man. whichever it is ...
it gave a pretty good article on the entire thing. like ... i don't know.
its still wierd when people refer to me as a female-male. but whichever it is ...
i don't think that it is that bad now.
i kinda gotten used to it.
somehow.it'd only get better i guess.but whichever ... go read the article. its pretty good.
kaaye\.- not like anyone would understand.but yes.
memories locked at Tuesday, March 06, 2007
i don't know. but ...
i feel so lucky to have her in my very dark life. maybe its just me. i don't know. i can't stop thinking or looking at her
every single time that i am with her. she's like some
happy pill or some drug that has no side effects or
no price tag. its something that neither you or i can just with money that we have in our banks.
its something so much more and i ... and
i am very very thankful for that. its so queer. i can still remmeber ...
it was all a mistake to start the entire relationship out with.
it felt so special. and it still does. amazingly. it still does have that spark. everytime i look into her eyes ..
i feel so damn fucking happy for some wierd reason.
no matter how bad we argue ; no matter how much pain i might have caused her - unknowingly ; no matter how much time we don't spend together. i am still that fucking happy.its just amazing.=
went out with
my banana today !!! cause dearest secretary was sick with
stupid cramps. i hate mens.
they cock up everything !! argh !!! anyways ... we still had alot of fun. picked her up from her gym.
[ for once i was actually on time. heh heh. ] can you imagine that !!! ha ha. LOL. whichever. we went to watch ... 'the pursuit of happyness'. its not a bad show.
pretty interesting actually. then we went to ... drink at indo chine. the one at wisma. then ... went to ... have dinner at crystal jade. oh man ...
the porridge still tastes as good as ever !!! =)) ha ha. then went back home. i tell you.
i hate my low blood pressure.
i almost died in the bus. but then ... never mind that. i tell you ...
i wanted to kill myself. my tian.
anyways ... i am staying over at my tiong house tonight.
too lazy to head home.oh ... and
i got my bus tickets to KL yesterday !!! woo wee ... =))
my banana and i are going for our first holiday together. not to mention , my first holiday not with any family memebers or adults and also
the first one with my girl friend !!! ha ha.
I CAN'T WAIT !!!=))
i am a happy piece fo shit.kaaye\.- when the odds add up ;to so much much more.
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Sunday, March 04, 2007
大雨过后的眼泪挂在充满回忆的橱窗我却不想忘以往那些心碎的心创记忆是一个行囊陪伴着我到世界流浪我让悲伤都装上翅膀再见了就不能倔强该忘了你对不对怕自己无法面对无怨无悔把一切留给纪念受过沉默的创伤它会慢慢被岁月一片片填满渐渐就习惯不再想忘记曾经最痛的地方该忘了你对不对我应该坚强面对学会遗忘不能像爱的挣扎记忆会为我收藏那些美丽时光为爱付出过的力量带着爱去寻找幸福的希望
=
there are somethings i can't say.
its called responsibility.
kaaye\.
- you just want to lie awake ;
and forgo the world.
memories locked at Sunday, March 04, 2007
i am so lost without you.
i can't seem to think right. i don't like knowing that
i don't know. that i don't know what is going on. cause baby i love you so. and
i don't want you to ever leave me under. where are you. i miss you so. honey ... what am i to say ,
when you tell me you need and want so much more.what am i to say.tell me.
what am i to say.what am i to do.when everything i have done and given ;
is all i have left.kaaye\.- heading down.
memories locked at Sunday, March 04, 2007
Thursday, March 01, 2007
i don't expect anything much in this life time. i want to leave this world so much ... as quietly as i can.
but i can't. i have a million and one obligations. i have a million and two people to answer to. i hate this feeling.
everything is breaking into a million little pieces and i can't do anything to sew them back together. cause they can't be.
i don't know what to say anymore.
i have always been here.and
its eating me alive. the best part of it all :
you don't even know when it started.
and you'd never know when it'd end.kaaye\.- in life and death.we are alone ; everyone.
memories locked at Thursday, March 01, 2007