Saturday, December 24, 2005
so you think that you could have your way.
in my cynical mind.
then i guess you are wrong.
the other still knows me the best.
it was all my fault to being with.
regret's the only thing i can do now ...
besides waiting.
when will the tide come in again ???
patience - i say to myself.
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woopee. yesterday was christmas and i know mah babe didn't exactly have a good one. eh ... know what , i didn't know that i actually raised my voice at you too !!! god damned it. until like my cousin was like asking me why i raised my voice and everything. yupps. just hope that yesterday's incident will never happen to you again. :)
had dinner at my place with esther and denyse. and then john came along. super interesting ... heh. BEEF BEEF BEEF !!! i really don't know how in the world i am ever going to turn into a vegetarian ... BEEF is like ... the KING of all MEATS !!! *drools. heh.
*right denyse ??? ha ha.
went to esther's aunt's place. had MORE FOOD !!! which made me so freaking full man !!! then headed down to church. woot. saw kinda alot of people ... headed down to marina south yesterday. damn. my pool balls are getting better. ha ha. i can slice people !!! i can slice ya damn farking arse !!! ha ha.
let's not get so ego here. :)
oh wells. i still am waiting for my real life eeyore and flying pig. ... but first ... can someone get me a real life tigger ???
- kaye.
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Monday, December 19, 2005
Are you or are you not.
I am here again.
I don't really know why.
Walked a mile.
Only to discover I was actually walking in a huge circle.
Denying was all I knew what was right.
You are everything that I needed.
Took me in your arms.
Held me through the night.
And yet …
I don't really know what I left you - in the very first place.
The space in my heart you once dominated.
Never really got replaced.
Its still there.
Like a vacant lot.
Just like how it had always been.
I was wrong.
I never knew.
Time's up for playing.
Its over.
Plan B has got to work.
Or I am done for good.
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Let's see … I have not been updating for the longest time. For reasons like so many farking things have been taking place to the extent that I do not know how to handle it. All at one go. Just like how things always come and go for me. - nice one.
Life has been treating me quite well … and I kinda love it this way. Simple. If I want to head out. I'd just … Go. The only people you have to answer to is my parents … Which … Are sometimes more bitchy then you think that could even be. I like/love hanging out with Esther aka my secretary and Denyse aka 'too many names', Ah hue aka Tiff and my niece !!! Natasha. Heh.
BRING ON THE POOL !!! I can 'tok' !!! Aka curve ball !!! Woot.
I would like to address an issue to my dear ones like WENNY YEO … that I so miss their farking arses - BIG TIME. And I so wish to spend more time with them because I know they are all so important to me. We got to head out sometime. Not like you guys don't read or even worse … not know how important you guys are to me !!! REMEMBER !!! WE NEED TO HEAD OUT !!! *grins.
The second issue is that … I am going to be going on a clubbing spree. - you know the usual. If I go … I don't exactly want or wish to bump into people. Its just weird. No pun intended here.
Anyways … its ladies night at momo for me this Wednesday then CHINA BLACK THIS FRIDAY and … Saturday … still in the process of thinking and on Sunday … its ZOUK. I want to head to MOS. And before I even got my arse there … I already know the crew who's in charge of the music aka bass aka SOUND SYSTEM there. Not bad eh ??? :)
Third issue of which I find the most important. I AM NOT GOING TO CHURCH OR GOING TO THE MOSQUE OR WHAT SO EVER. I am not a free thinker … and its not by choice. I do believe in a higher being. But not that , that you would even understand. Its all the mind and the culture and the environment that we stupid human beings are left to live with. Think about it … if you were not brought up to believe , if you were not brought up to think … Would you think of your god as, well … Your god ??? Would you ???
Okie I think that I have preached enough.
I love you guys. :)
\kaye.
I know what I am doing might not be orthodox.
Its wrong to still be in denial.
But its even worse if the person you fall back in love with …
If some what responding.
And yet you don't really know.
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Tuesday, December 13, 2005
:) woot. i am back from me holiday and i did NOT ENJOY A SINGLE BIT. god damn it man. i mean think about it. not much shopping makes me irritated and irritable. though , i got quite a god book from there. heh.oh god. i am so into this philosophy book. shit man. believe it or not. heh. i love my phiosophies and my ideosyncrasies in life. thankyouverymuch.i am still in it. kaye\.
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
okie. i will be leaving tonight. and i think that i am SO NOT going to miss singapore. considering ... i have been here for so farking long already. heh. went out yesterday. rather ... i met heather and my ah gel ... had sakae , then everyone kinda left for their separate ways ??? yuppers. i went down to star bucks , we were kinda giving away free drinks ... ha ha. 541 cuppas in like 2 hours !!!! beat that man !!! everyone was there ... inclusive of selina and mat !!! woot. :) then slacked around. we were drinking man. as in , mirah , mat , wani and i. heh. and yes ... BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF KAYE. ha ha. god. men are so ... (*^#%@*#. :) i am not evil. i swear. ha ha. *private joke. heh.okie. i got my hair CUT. like ... 2 days ago ??? farking fun. rather ... i love my hair and i am going to dye it god knows what colour. ha ha. considering ... yeah. red is the color i have been thinking about ... heh.so yeah. i'd be updating from other the other side. ... IF POSSIBLE !!! heh. laters. love.kaye\. taking in the a breathe of the fresh breeze.memories flood my vessels.the mind's lost its sense of control.never has the heart ranched in this fashion.the curtains of life has finally opened.reality has set in.
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Sunday, December 04, 2005
so yeah. THIS IS THE NEW BLOG. trying to fit into the new 'blogging' system. god damn it man. anyways ... yes. i am learning to live with things i cannot explain or get over. time will help me bear with it BETTER. like ALWAYS. :)
okie. i am on HOLIDAY. and i am so utterly addicted to KTV. and so are my stupid classmates. which i personally adore and love every single stupid second we spend together. ha ha. HEY. admit man ... you guys are farking good people to hang with. heh.
friday was eventful boy. after school we went for dinner at marche. then ... went to party world for a KTV session i could never forget. heh. super fun. even thought some of them LEFT frEEging EARLY. damn.
headed home. was just about to sleep. till ... my ever dearest bro called. heh. what else do you associate friday with boy !!! heh. headed down to CB. kinda happening i figure ??? was at the VIP booth. rather ... that is what they called it. left pretty early ... cause we changed club. don't like CB man. so ... not my cuppa tea. heh. :) went down to MOMO !!! woot.
now i so SOLEMLY SWEAR ... i love that place so much better then CB. fark. CB SUCKS !!! even though i would be attending parties there in a bit ... BUT STILL !!!
heh. so yeah ... went home at about ... 4 plus ??? and before i knew it ... saturday arrived and headed to work. ... god damned it. *screams. after that ... had a damn nice dinner. then off to meet esther chen wai ling !!! heh. had a hell lotta food ... met dee too. heh. MAPLE STORY WAS THE MAIN SUBJECT.
you can imagine how blur i was. heh. reached home at about ... 12 plus ??? yuppers. conked out STRAIGHT MAN.
and there was work again today ??? tired like a farking piece of tender lamb shank. heh.
oh wells.
till tomorrow i figure ??? heh.
my class rawks my socks.
kaye\.
-Six days went by.
Trying to forget her face.
It was you and I.
We were to young for these games.
And all the pictures that I kept.
And all the things I should have said.
It was you and I.
But mostly me.
Lost in you.
And I can't find myself again.
Lost in you.
And I can't find myself again.
Six weeks went by.
Still pretending that I'm fine.
It was you and I.
Holding back what's on our minds.
And all the things I should have said.
And all the letters left unsent.
It was you and I.
But mostly me.
Lost in you.
And I can't find myself again.-
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