Saturday, May 06, 2006
i did not sleep for the past 36 hours.don't ask why. some people just need not know. before i get into deep shit. i swore never to be here again. and i don't know why i am. its not right. its not supposed to be this way. i was supposed to be having fun yesterday. and it turns out ...
the other way around.i had fun the earlier part of the day , thank god for wei wei , nana and xiao ling. they acompanied me to pass the time in the early part of the day. we had loads of laughter. even though i knew something was going to happen today.
hey. i do
have a 6th sense for such shit. not that i am boasting. but most of the time ... it works. so whichever. i went to vanessa's place after that. cause she just got back from london. went to say hi. nothing much after that.
i feel so guilty. the guilt is going to kill me sooner or later. cause i know i don't like her the tiniest bit. but i know she does. and its wrong. its so wrong to keep her waiting like that. she knows ... she farking knows. and i ... being a bastard. i just told her everything last night. i hope she understands.
- i know you read this blog of mine. i hope you are fine. i told you from the start i couldn't. you said we should try. i tried. it didn't work. i just can't. whichever it was ... went for some drinks with toh , hue & claire. went to holland. fark man. we kinda had a pretty good time. i got drunk. and its the bad one. but anyways ... headed to maxwell for supper. started getting super ... cold. i was practically freezing on the taxi.
i don't understand how some people are given the power to over take your mind. i don't.
god damned it.
like what happened yesterday was not enough. HA. tomorrow's going to be a better day.
i hope.kaye\.- don't tell me what i want to hear.
tell me what you want to say.
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