never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006
- of always being sick and tired.
is it me or is it you.
not like time is going to buy me anything. in time to come. everything about me now is going to seem like a huge joke on me in the following years when i look back at myself. i am going to laugh at myself for be the most stupid person on earth.

i just don't get it. i really just don't get it. why are the facade and the memoria of you still taunting my very existence. i don't get it. you are gone. but the memories stay. moreover they are the good ones. which just make everything all so much more worse.

they taunt. they don't haunt. that is the worse thing. they taunt me whenever i start something off. whenever i start to get a move on. i don't get it !!! i don't get it !!! what the fark is hapening now adays. what the heck is happening to everyone.

or is it just me. i can't get that straight. messed up i will never say i am.

WHY CAN'T I JUST MOVE ON AND GET WITH THE GAME AGAIN. WHY DO OU HAVE TO HAUNT MY EXISTENCE. AND THEN TO ONLY KNOW THAT ... I AM THE ONLY ONE LEFT HERE CAUSE I CAME BACK TOO LATE. DON'T FOOL ME. I HAD ENOUGH WITH THE FOOLING AND THE ILLUSION OF A BACK DROP I WAS HOPING FOR. I NEED TO GET A MOVE ON. I NEED TO.
god damn this. this sucks so badly. i wonder what is going on around me sometimes. i see everything happening. but i don't understand why somehow i can take myself out and see me. i can see me doing things.

no. i don't have a psychological disorder. even ESTEIN talks to himself. in that way.

so messed up.

kaye\.
- let me get over you.
i need to move on with life.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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