Tuesday, May 16, 2006
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go.
But I’m doin’ It.
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone.
Still Harder.
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret.
But I know if I could do it over.
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart.
That I left unspoken.
What hurts the most.
Is being so close.
And having so much to say.
And watching you walk away.
And never knowing.
What could have been.
And not seeing that loving you.
Is what I was trying to do.=
i just got back not long ago from harbour. not that i am complaing about the world today , but ... i think that there are more and more things happening each day ... with so many comments that are omitted cause of the fear of the other person' s feelings. but then ...
on the other hand ...
no one actually thinks of it the constructive way. on how to put it across on how to make it sound like a feed back instead of a statement filled with pun and intent to harm. - i just don't get it.
nah nah. don't get me wrong. i just some how feel that , there are certain people in the world who are much older then me ... and 'supposedly' more mature. take my mother for an example ... she does not.
I REPEAT DOES NOT KNOW WHAT PRINCIPLE MEANS. don't say something you don't intend to do or intend to keep your word to. the sad fact is. ... NO MATTER HOW OLD YOU ARE. ... or how
RELIABLE THE PERSON OR GENUINE THE PERSON IS ...
PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN. - short and sweet.
her name is
appalling towards ; it's sound that tingles in my ear , causing an uneasy queezy effect upon my unstable emotional mindset , at the very moment in time. is it so difficult to understand.
things are
not so simple now. do we have to bring along the baggage whenever we talk about the past. when history starts to repeat.
why blame. why hold grudges.the simple fact that.
IT BRUSIED OUR EGO. or ... we just want to make 'MYSELF' known. - to the world out there OR to
blow the matter up on how shallow that party is. without ... listening.WITHOUT.even before trying to understand. juding before trail.
how convinient.
ELO !!!??? EARTH TO YOU !!! the world does not revolve around you , darling. wake up and smell the flowers.
kaye\.- don't let it be you.
compunctuious regret.
with you as the leading actress.
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