Tuesday, June 27, 2006
just finished my dinner. which consisted of a huge bowl of mayo and mustard drenched vegetables !!!
i finished my huge bowl of it. not that bad actually , once in a while its actually pretty nice. heh. i am and i
HAVE to get on a diet. i am putting on weight and i am loosing my muscles ... went to swim today ... i did like ...
15 laps in about 20 mins or 30 mins ??? which is kinda ;
disappointing. cause i know i can do better then that. if not for me forgetting my goggles ...
wait , i actually found them after my swim. with my soap and all. how
dumb could i get. really. called starbucks. i need to give them like 2 weeks prior notice before i get to quit. god.
friday is my contract signing. and like ... i don't know what to expect !!! my tian !!! whatever is going to happen to me.
i need some guidance.
for the rest of the entry ; you can choose not to read.
with everything said and done.
it
still doesn't seem to be over.
take the smiles and happy memories.
i'd take the tears and jeers.
you're the only one who can ;
who i let in.
with full construe that ,
i will be at the loosing end.
i don't really want to loose you.
not completely.
the portion of my compunctious heart you acquired ;
still there.
untouched ; raw as it was left.
tell me this.
i can't live with or without you.
i still need you.
i still feel for you.
like i have always did.
and i will most probably will for
longer then already expected.
i don't want to be a door mat.
safety net ; cushion.
i don't want to be your second choice.
i'm not your subsitute.spare me your mind games.
i can't take it.
karma's coming.
and i just hope
its not on you.
i rather it be me.kaaye\.- i've wings.
but you just won't let me fly.
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