never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Thursday, June 22, 2006
i tell you. i solemly swear to you. i am back on the drawing board. with the pampering of self. with the pampering ... with the spending of time with the ones who make me feel safe and sane. i love them tons. and i swear to you ... its times like this , its times like when i feel like killing myself over a stupid compunctuious bitch that i really thank them for being there. i really really do.

whichever it is , yeah. i really don't know what i am getting done here anymore. my contract signing with the navy is on the 30th of this month. AKA NEXT WEEK FRIDAY. i don't know how in the world i am going to go. neither do i know ... if i really want this for my life and all ...

its scary , and its going to be the biggiest decision that i am ever going to make. its a make or break kinda thing. and i ... call the shots for this. no one else does. which in turn causes the HUGE stress thing ... of which i so hate and detest to every single bit.

i wonder what is going to happen and everything. cause i am so scared i make the wrong decision. but yet again ... i know that i am not. cause ... the world out there is so carniving ... its a dog eat dog world out there and i don't like snatching things from people neither do i like to compete for the same things as like ... 10 or 30 other people alike.

whichever.

something's bubbling under and i don't know what. for all i know is ... i don't want to get involved with anyone anymore. its scary and i fall into things too quickly and everything turns more vulnerable then before everything began.


kaaye\.


- its over and done.
but the heart ache lives on inside.
take a peek.
take off.
don't let me see you again ; i beg.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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