Thursday, June 01, 2006
What makes the one to shake you down?
each touch belongs to each new sound.
say now you want to shake me too.
move down to me, slip into you.
She sinks in my mind as she sheds through her skin.
touch like taste like fire.
hands to know what eyes no longer defend.
hands to fuel desire.
I'll be fine, you'll be fine.
this moment seems so long.
don't waste now, precious time.
we'll dance inside the song.=
i am
trying to control.
the
tears from falling.i am feeling like crap.
when i type this entry.
its this
detestable feeling.
i don't think you'd ever live to comprehend.
i awake to this world.
who doesn't understand me.
not from the inside out.
they pass judgement.
like its
a death sentence.
i
can't try understanding why.
my family is
giving me more pressure.
then they
think exists.
my maid's causing it.
my parents have to think of the consequences.
guess who's the one taking the crap.i am the
only one in the house.
who
HAS to be there.
to
take care of everything.
cause my parents are too busy.
my gram has no power.
my sister is too pathetic to try ;
getting anything done at home. my head's aching.
cause seeing my parents in this plight.
when
every one else in my family only has the police ;
as the
'last resot'.
as what they call it.
no one should be put in this position.
at the age and time.
my classmates in school.
suck.
they
judge me.
and they don't treat me like i am a
normal human.
i am
under immense pressure as it is.
i don't get my grades.
my classmates suck.
cept for the few.
my heart's aching.
i am already
crying every night.
so that
maybe i get so tired.
my body gives up the fight to stay alive.
and
try to sleep.
i
try praying every night.
that all this would go away.
i
pray everynight that she'd ;
somehow come back.
and i know its never going to be enough. kaaye\.- Stab my back.
It’s better when I bleed for you.
Walk on me.
It never was enough to do.
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