never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Thursday, June 29, 2006
no really. what have i done to deserve this. i really don't get it. wait. this is straight first. i have complete control over my blog. and if you don't like what's being written here ... i suggest you move to another one.

so let's cut to the chase. i don't know what i am doing is right. i am fucking numb right now. it may be the medicine. i don't know. but something's definately working like it should. cause , i am not feeling anything. just like how i want it to be. simple. happy yes. cause of my beloved friends.

anything more then that ... i suggest you take your leave before something happenes that is more then just uncalled for. i don't want to take anymore chances. i don't want to be vulnerable. not anymore. i don't know what this life is going to bring me. cause i can't stand anything like that ... its going to bring me down. and i won't let it happen again.

you are the only one i let in and out of my life , like its a temporary staged hotel. built and custom designed just for you. - but you'd never see what i see. and you'd never read my blog. so i don't see a reason in ranting everything here. though i think i might have a little.

how can one love two people at the same time with the same intensity. with the same mind set. with the same ... ideals and all. let that soft spot grow hard in the freezer. i don't want to deal with you anymore. i am not the same kaye who let you in and out. without wishing karma to come get you soon. cause now ... i wish retribution and karma will get you at full blow at teh exact same time.

mark my words people. karma works in wonderous ways. it really does. just watch. patience is something you should cultivate into a virtue. cause it works.


i am going to get my hair cut SHORT tomorrow. not like it alreayd isn't. heh. with hope it makes me feel better.


kaaye\.


- its this close to failing.
and it hope it tips over.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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