never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Thursday, August 10, 2006
this is it. i have given it enough thought , they only bring trouble and endless sleepless nights. i thrown in the towel. i don't want anyone anymore. its going to take everything i have. i know. but i don't really care anymore. if its going to take whatever i had set in place ... its alright with me ... as long as i am okay in the long run. anything goes. and i mean everything and anything.

i am going to fend this incubus off. this time i am more determined then ever. nothing is going to stand in my way. even if i cry buckets. i know what is good and what is not good for myself. i know. i am not going to give in to my gluttony for contact. i am not going to give in to my lack of self esteem or my weak spots. its not going to work anymore.

i am sick and tired of anyways being sick and tired over and over the same thing over and over again. its enough. more then enough. get out and stay out. don't ever come back. i loved you once and i still do. its just , its never going to be the same. is it. never. why bother even being my friend. i don't want it. i don't.

please don't bother. it just makes your pain harder to bear. and you jolly well know it. i'm disappearing. don't catch me.

here is where the line is being drawn.


kaaye\.


- crucify my love.
if it will set you free.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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