never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Monday, September 25, 2006
issues issues issues.
i have alot of issues lately.
and my arse is like BURNT.
as in like ...
burnt.
i am so overly consumed in my ...
little world and like ,
i feel dead.
seriously dead.
emotionally and everything.

dead.

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issue one : i can't stop ; thinking of her.

i have a huge issue. my mind plays images of her periodically and like , it plays them when i see something that reminds me of her. and my heart wants something to happen of which , I DON'T. i don't want anything to happen. at least that is what my brain is thinking and wanting. but my heart wants the other wise.

its telling me , to call her soon. expect her call. its been about ... 4 days. not a word from her. i intended to spend my little forutne with her ... but looks like , i never did. why ??? i can't understand myself. is it just me ??? i think it is.

it was just me all along.
right ???


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issue two : my close friend tiffany and the -ing's.

the people i hold close to my heart are in the midst of a little squabble. and i don't like it. i don't like feeling threatened or that my friend has already left. without me. and i am still here waiting for something ... that you jolly well know might never come. it was all ust a matter of trust in a certain sense.



i felt betrayed.
and i don't know why.
i don't like this lingering feeling of being betrayed or anything along its lines , but i can't help it. resentful ??? a little. frankly speaking ... i even feel revenge-ful and at the same time , i feel a little lost. i don't know when or how am i going to react when i see you ; hue. i don't.

i'm so freaking lost.


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issue three : i need to get my phone ; hair dyed and cut ; piercing done.

reasons to all of the above are very simple.

1. i want to be brand new. shrink the past. i don't want anything to remind me of her. at least not again. or something.

2. i need a new look. cause everytime i look at the mirror , it reminds me of too many things.

3. i want the piercings. cause i know when i get in. i won't be able to get any done.


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i am lost. i hate it.
jay chou's new song is not helping.
my medicine can't stop these thoughts.
can it ???


kaaye\.


- i need it to go away.
far away.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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