- held up in my own carceration of doubt\.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

went down town.
was supposed to stay home.
she told me she was alone.
she ended up with friends.
and apparently ,
i have a huge problem.
crowds are not my thing.
i was okay with groups of people.
now,
i ...
i don't know.

i saw.
i went down town.
i wanted to leave.
so badly.
i wanted to leave.
hung around for ...
40 mins plus.
headed to boat quay.
to meet her other friend with wei ye.
maybe its just me ???
i don't like crowds.

and i don't like hanging around with people ,
i don't know.
and am not comfy with.
blame it on me ,
for being unsocialble.
its my fault.
my head's spining.
i think ...
i think i have a condition.

my appointment's moved to tuesday.
i wonder what its going to be this time.
dad thinks its a relapse.
let's hope it isn't.
its one step closer to my grave.

kaaye\.

- its life or death.

memories locked at Sunday, September 10, 2006

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.

likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.

dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.

wish list\.
~~that calculator casio watch.~~
that pair of rock and republic pants.
~~that perfect messenger bag.~~
that new PDA !!!
~~that new laptop.~~
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
~~that new tops from pull and bear.~~
that new pair of jeans.
~~that flesh imp top.~~
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.