Monday, September 11, 2006
i love bro's entry. buah ha ha. i realised something , if i didn't have people
breaking my heart , indirectly backstbbing me , some t
wo faced mother fuckers , people who are so contradicting ,(i take my hat off to them , cause the best part of it all here right ... is that , they don't think that they are being
hypocritical. which amazes me to a T. heh.) fucker who just want to have fun at your expense and those innocent ones who have to
bear with your anger ...
i don't think we will be what we are today.as strong ,
as intelligent ,
as cautious ,
as weary ,
as adpt ,
as on the go ,
as demanding ,
etc , etc.as we are all right now. and for that ...
I THANK ALL THE PEOPLE I HATE AND DETEST. cause you make me a better person for not doing anything to you.
may the guilt and the arogance of that , kill you. r.i.p. let this be the
point of redemption , i have never set eyes on. the only reason to which , i have never set my eyes on it ??? easy , i find no reason to ,
things all happen for a reason. good or bad , whether you count it as your blessings or not. it all happens for a fucking good reason. trust me ; reasons
don't have to make logical sense. just cause
they don't have to. and they answer to no one.
which explains everything. yes yes.
i don't know what i am doing. neither do i know where is this all heading to.
my medicine's working today. and i am feeling so much better. i seriously am. i miss the days where , i answer to no one ??? just did what
i liked. cause i knew , no one really bothered. no one really have two hoots about me. cause in that way , i can make myself to a sad sorry state ,
kill myself all over and maybe ... be some flying
smoking and drinking angel flying around the clouds in summer.
BUT.i thank god for the friends i have made along the way. those like
the -ing's. i love you guys more then life in itself. the times i cried my eyes out. the times i squeeked over the phone cause
some girl sent me a sms that touched my heart. the times we hung out. the times we did nothing but cooked and slakced at bro's place. the times , i was so close to
seeing death. i saw you guys ,
you guys helped pave a safe way , right beside yours.i thank god for those friends of mine in poly. muah
tingtong clique. you make everything much easier. and the world looking a
little less complicated. the hour lunches , we
indulge ourselves in every day in school. the times i wanted to cry. and when i did , you guys supplied me
TONS of tissue and guidance. helped me shun away from that
petrifying incubus , i dread to lay my eyes on.
i thank you guys for understanding.
for being there.
for not letting the friendship die.
for always putting effort.
for always caring for one another.
for the stupid things that make me wonder ; HOW STUPID I CAN GET.
for making the memories ,
and to the ones that are yet to be made.this is how close i hold you guys to my heart.
don't break it.i trust each and everyone of you. of which i rarely give to people i don't count as a close friend like you guys.
i love you'll. each and everyone of you.fat ; skinny ; ugly ; tall ; short.
cause it all don't matter.i love you for who you are ; not what you might be.=))
kaaye\.- i'm fighting the relapse.
not cause of you.
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