Tuesday, September 12, 2006
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
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i don't know what state of mind i am in. but
i don't feel good. tears are about to erupt from my eyes. for some
sick minded person who doesn't even think that my pressence on earth is the
least bit important ; for that matter.
and all the screw ups i am facing. with that of the fucking navy pay rool.
my vulnerability to loose her anytime of the day. and with friends , i can't meet up with cause they are busy. and
i don't blame them.
actually i blame myself.for all the world's misery has to be put on
someone's shoulders as blame. for the easiest reason ... for that , if there ain't someone taking the blame then ...
we all don't feel good. don't we. it makes us
feel better or at the upper end
if someone takes the blame and responsibility for certain matters we all don't ever want to think twice of. i blame myself for being so vulnerable and letting her in. i blame myself for being over reliant on certain friends. i blame myself for causing people to be
baffled. i blame myself for not being able to plan properly. i blame myself for not being on the ball about the navy.
i blame myself for crying over nothing. i blame myself for not being able to understand the world. i blame myself for not being able to take the blame and for that , go psycho.
i blame myself for not being able to handle.i blame myself.=))
kaaye\.- i am not as important.
take and leave.
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