never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Thursday, October 05, 2006
this is like ...
my 5th time at this very page.
i try to post an entry.
but everytime i compose one.
i end up stop writing it half way.
serioulsy speaking , its getting difficult on trying how to express my thoughts. its a matter of how you phrase it. YES , i know. but ... its also a matter of how to get those emotions into words. in a certain sense. am i right ??? i am so sick of trying to be normal. i actually feel like i am choking on air , yes. in its very raw form.

i stopped taking prozac. its day 7. i am feeling perfectly fine. I THINK. and i really hope so. my xanax , mild lithium and sedative pills are all not working. my littlw fantasy world is breaking down. and i am reading 'prozac nation'. trust me. if you want to know how i feel ... read the book. cause the author manages to express herself better then me. and i am feeling the exact same way as she is. very much the same. really.

school has been pretty fun. i love my new class and all. can't wait for tomorrow. cause i will be meeting everyone. its the lantern festival tomorrow. i miss jenny. cause dee , jen and i used to light lucky candles. one for everyone. we make little wishes for each of them. and yeah. blow them out there after. i don't know why we do it. but i believe it works. and its like a little tradition kinda thingy. i miss jen.

after meeting them i think i am going to meet my class mates for drinks or something. saturday will be with another group of classmates. to vivo city !!! swee la. then mos with mel ong at night. sunday's the rest day. *crosses fingers. at least i think. sweet reverie. PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE. this is what i do ... to keep my mind off you.

she popped me on IM today. i didn't know how to react.
i didn't see a reason to why i have got to reply.
but i did.
less then 5 words.
is it a good thing ??
i don't know.
i just know. ...
she is so bad for health ...
she is poison in its purest form.
you'd never find another.


kaaye\.


- you're sweet poison ...
seeping into my veins.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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