never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006
i am fucking stuck in this asylum.
i can't run from it.
cause the every last time i tried ...
they all back fired like no one's business.
and to think that i was going to give up.
and to think that ... i managed to pull over it once. and not forgetting the second time. the third one's coming. i can feel it. what is the matter with me !!! oh my fucking god. what the fuck is wrong. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. i am so fcking fucked up. i am so fucking pissed. and i am so fucking tired.

what is the point of having someone at your beck and call ??? when all you do is treat her like a subsitute or a friend with benefits when she loves you like you're all she has. but not to mention ... everytime you get intimate , your mind plays the image of another person. the one long before. cause she's all you think about till now.

you told her to forget you.
the smartest move you can bring your mind to think of. but guess what ... its backfiring , and you're the one that's getting the runt of the whole experience of falling into the unknown. no one else knows. no one else feels the same way as you do. no one.


=

explaining myself is getting futile.
so i give up ;
trying to.
its as messed up.


kaaye\.


- falling into the unknown.
i can't be bothered to try see ;
what lies in front of me.
not anymore.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

shoutouts.

plugs.


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