Tuesday, November 07, 2006
so there i was ,
crossing the road home today.
rather just now.
and i was almost hit my a car. even though , the
'green man' was flickering instead of a red.
i was this close to death. THIS CLOSE. so yes. i came home.
like nothing ever happened and went on the internet to check stuff about that split second before you die. cause ,
i had heard that ... that split second where by your eyes bulge out and where by you loose like 2 breaths in an instant and where by your heart in in your mouth ; metaphorically ...
you actually have images of stuff that mean alot to you.so yes. from the internet and its
very reliable sources , i realised that for that instant ...
IT IS PROVEN. that you get like ... flashbacks of images of things that are very important for you ... or that where by you need to get done or something along those lines.
i had 5 images. 5 images ... i think i would have before i actually really pass away.
in no particualr order : image one : the picture of the -ing's that i have in my wallet.
image two : that picture of charis and i ; taken at mos.
image three : the picture of the ting tongs and i ; when we were all in black.
image four : the picture of mel and i.
image five : the picture of my family ; the family portriat that hangs in my parent's room.
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for the love of god.
i don't know why ... i don't know why. i actully thought about stuff mentioned above.
which obviously caused me to be in a much bigger shock than yo think i am or might be in.whichever it is.
this sucks and i can't do anything anymore. its beyond my capabilities. erm ... did i mention , i am in cold turkey. i am not ....
i am not on my medicine. i am not.
i don't want to be crayon.not anymore.
kaaye\.- sometimes ;
i wonder why.
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