never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small.
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall.
You've been closing me in , closing the space in my heart.
Watching us fading and watching us fall apart.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough.
Cause I gave it all to you.
And if you leave me now.
Oh just leave me now.
It's the better thing to do.

It's time to surrender.
It's been too long pretending.
There's no use in trying.
When the pieces don't fit anymore.
pan style="font-weight:bold;">When the pieces don't fit anymore.
The pieces don't fit anymore.

You pulled me under so I had to give in.
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin.
Well I'll hide all the bruises; I'll hide all the damage that's done.
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone.


=


hello people.
i am going to collect my synflex today.
after school.
have a good final rest.
before the dreaded paper tomorrow.

i know i said i was going into cold turkey. but it seems that ... i prefer beef. i can't do it. let the drugs make me. cause ... its so fucking difficult. and that no one understands. cause no matter what i really feel inside this fucking facade automatically gets turned on. and like ... i never really get to show it. cause ... somehow , my mind has the this thought that in front of anyone ; 'I HAVE TO BE HAPPY'.

and trying to fucking hide it ... is enough to kill me. so yes. like a drug addict , i am going to go to get my drugs later after school. =)) and be a good sick child , 'trying' to get cured. but the thing here that people don't quite understand is that ... i am not sick to begin with. its not a sickness. its something else. ITS JUST NOT A SICKNESS.

no one understands. i figure.
that it is not a sickness.

if you could feel the pain ; if only you can construe what i am going through. its like a never ending night mare that gets worse everytime you start thinking about anything. an endless nightmare beyond your very expectations. - that is what i am going through. every single day.

as i said ;
i am beyond anyone's comprehension.
give up already.


kaaye\.


- no one really does ;
so why try.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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