Thursday, November 30, 2006
hello 1st december.
everything is going down hill. from today onwards.
its 24 more days to christmas and YES. i am going to spend christmas all alone.
again. just like last year. hopefully i am used to it. well ... whichever it is.
HELLO.i am having
family problems. first time in my entire life. i am having it at such close proximity to my heart. oh yes. battle between father and mother. i don't know what the fuck is going on any more. i think i should just continue ... using my computer and act like everything is okay ...
till someone comes to me and tells me what is going on. cause frankly , its not like i cannot be bothered.
i just don't know which one is right or which one is wrong anymore. never mind.
it'd pass me by.hopefully.
you know ,
you know. if you could just stand in my shoes for that split second to know how i am feeling now. i think ... i would happier. as in , if anyone would know how i feel ... i would feel better.
at least there is someone out there who fully understands. somehow.
i don't like looking into her eyes , knowing that everything is but a lie.to know that i am surpressed so big ;
i might fail to succeed at all.
to have that shadow of doubt smashed on my face. every single time i try to breathe a little. something so strong puts me back into that hole with no life.
ignorance brings about the utmost arrogance in people ; then jab them straight in the heart. without a second opinion and without a second thought.
it infuses something , we call the unimaginable excruciating pain.most will never live to understand.kaaye\.- bringing about this ;loosing every single bit of it.
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