never saw it coming.
i should have started running.

Friday, December 01, 2006
what have you done to me.
i'd never be the same.
i'd never be the same i'd tell you for sure.
you really are my ecstasy.
my real life fantasy.
you really are my ecstasy.
my real life fantasy.


=


so the thing goes.

wei wei said this, 'if you don't get over her. there is no point in getting into another relationship when your heart is not in it. to only get into one for the sake of it.'

wenny said this, 'its a monogamous relationship.'

i don't have much to comment on. cause frankly ... its nothing but the truth in such a fucking raw form. 'hello love ; i still don't feel you. NOPE. i don't.' its been one week since ... i had synflex. or anything along those lines. cause i am out of them for about one week. and yes.

i am DYING. I AM DYING.
DYING IN THE LITERAL FORM.

nope. cigs do not help. not even reds. or even bud. or mojitos. or martel. ARGH !!!
i need to wait for tomorrow. i need to get back to the routine of going to my shrink. i need it so fucking badly. it has to function normally. omfg. i need my medicine !!! argh. i almost lost it today. no one saw it. thank god. i really almost did. i felt the anger get back on me.

oh yes people. aggressive angry angry violent anger.
trust me.
hell has no fury ; like me.
want to give it a shot ???
ha !


kaaye\.


- when is it ever going to end ;
before the last one snaps.

all about me;
kaaye\. 19years.
22nd november 1987.
overgrown kid.
taken.
my sanity's long gone.



likes\.
hanging out with my friends ; ALOT.
nice tasting alcohol in general ; erdinger ; mojito ; moet or blessed vc.
trance ; house ; rock ; alternative ; punk ; metal ; bossa nova / jazz.
new gadgets.
baking ; cupcakes and all.
shiny stuff.
the sun , the sand , the water = THE BEACH !!!
slacking like there is no such thing as time.



dislikes\.
the people i hate are all irritating !!!
horrid people ; with appalling characters.
people with horrid manners.
insects and such.
bad weather.
headaches ; ankle sprains.
BAD COFFEE !!!
greens.



wish list\.
that calculator casio watch.
that pair of rock and republic pants.
that perfect messenger bag.
that new PDA !!!
that new laptop.
that pair of adidas shoe-wees.
that pair of tiger shoe-wees.
that new jacket.
that nike haversack.
that new tops from pull and bear.
that new pair of jeans.
that flesh imp top.
that head porter bag.
that pair of lacoste shoe-wees.

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