Thursday, January 04, 2007
so where do i begin.
its short comings already seen.before it all begins.i see its end.for fear of everything so small ;fragile and breakable.this little thing we call our hearts.
oh people.
let's put it in this very blatant and a little crude manner. love is self fish. it surpasses friendship ;
no matter how strong. it took down empires. women help build cities ; but bring down empires. ever heard of this phrase ? a woman was all it took to take down troy.
a woman named cleopatra was all it took to bring down alexander's greek empire. oh sure as hell ,
i would blame the woman to the best of my capabilities. cause ,
that is the only thing i know of. to think that women are to blame for this love nonsense that causes
your heart to skip 2 beats ; your tummy to go sky high ; your endorphines released like mad shoppers at a sale ; your feet - 2 lefts. its all boils down to this thing we call 'love'. when those hormones in your body react to a certain person.
when they collide with your prevailing brain. and they
attack slowly from the back ; to release those 'love' hormones that make you go crazy.
then wonder why you went crazy the other moment. its the littlest things that the person does that makes you wonder ;
why the fuck do i even like him / her ?! love make people feel
'whole' , something in between those lines ... people feel so good , they don't want to let things go.
its like its platonical. it HAS to happen.
you LOVEin. you LOVEout. how they happen is another thing is another thing in total. people either let things be ; let love go ;
hold on to a dying love ;
not love at all. love as a whole will not be able to suffice.
it will only be LOVE ; if and only if ...
you manage to get the jist of the whole situation. where by at the end of the day , no matter how much the person pissed you off ...
you forgive and forget the very next minute. or when you are alone ... images of him / her reply in your mind.
FRAME BY FRAME. little treasures of their smile locked deep into your memory banks. there are 2 separate matters occuring at this stage.
both are very very close to home.one regards the 2 pillars of my life.
the other regards me.=
the 2 pillars of my life.i don't know what is going to happen. but
i never want to have to be in the center and HAVE to make a choice between anyone of you. because ,
i love you guys so much. you guys have been there since ... i think i thought.
from when i fell down , to the times where by i made girls run around my palm at the command of my fingers. you guys were there for everything !
christmas ; new year ; valentine's day ; EVERY OTHER DAY. this is how much ,
you guys play a part in my life. it might be nothing that ... i don't quite show it. but ...
everything about which concerns the both of you. i go soft. loving someone is not wrong.loving the same person as each other ; IS NOT WRONG.its just that
circumstances are very very queer.threading on thin ice ;
so you might say.with regards to ; yours truly.oh ... we all know what kinda person i am.
i change partners like underwear. treat them like disposables. and then forget about the whole entire situation in the next split second that comes along.
but what if this one ;is not a disposable underwear ?
than what.
kaaye\.- leave me thinking ;with your heart ranching.
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