there is nothing more i can say.
its the 26th.
oh yes.
its been a month since wayne said good bye.
i can't forget that face that he gave me on the table when i was at the vet. i can still recall the phone call i got from mount plesant. 'excuse me , are you miss kaye ??? could you please come down. cause wayne has taken a turn for the worse.' tears rolled down my cheeks like tomorrow never stood in the way.
he was on the table. all so skinny and wired up with tubes and a breathing mask. i can't forget that look in his eyes. when everything in the world fell in front of me , it didn't make much a difference. he was tearing. if you were there , you would have seen it yourself. he was crying too. tear by tear. the nurse was trying to find his nerve , but to no avail. he was too dehydrated to get anything done.
i was crying. xiao ling and wei wei came. wayne didn't stop trying to make me not cry. he gave his last burst of energy to tilt his head up to mine , to nudge me. to try tell me not to cry. that everything was going to be alright. HOW CAN EVERYTHING BE ALRIGHT. when he's obviously dying right before my eyes.
i miss wayne.
alot in fact.
kaaye\.
- daddy misses you.
memories locked at Monday, February 26, 2007