Friday, May 18, 2007
You’d know it when you see that light.
Shining all so bright amidst all that darkness.
So warm ; comforting.
You know your time is up.
Your patience level resembles an ice cream tub.
Waiting for someone or something to eat it.
Slowly but surely ,
It’d be gone.
Before you know it.
Right before your eyes ;
Looking right into your soul ,
It comes upon you like that familiar scent in your mind.
The one that you can never forget.
But never forgive.
So familiar yet so unforgiving.
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You try to believe everything that you see. Every single thing that she does for you is true. Or so you try to believe. The sloppy cover ups ; the lies ; the suspicious ‘truth’ she says real. Every time you look into her eyes after that small lie. After that evidence you found true to your claim came true. You know , you know she is lying right into your eyes. She has seen your soul. Taken it. Buried it within her heart. Taken that emotional support you know is all so comforting. Taken you for the ride of your life. All those lines she has spoken. The barriers she has broken all gone.
Each time you close your eyes , you know its all fake. You suspect everything. Forgive nothing. Call everything bluff. You tend to consider if what you now know and what she now states is the truth. Cause every single time you say something … You wonder if she is treating you like the other hers. Reassuring you , so that you would still stay and play her emotional pillar of her life. All so stable, while she is out there playing in the field she said was no more a part of her. Or so she states.
You don’t know what is right no more.
Cause for all you know.
She’s playing you like the others before.
Nothing is new no more.
Kisses given ;
You can never get back.
This is the last barrier you’re going to build. The one made with the heart of thorns ; shield of the mind. Hoping that it might last somehow. You pray.
kaaye\.
- i digress.
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